Sometimes It’s Good To Feel Bad

It’s a new day of the week, a new day of the month and, for me, it is the first day of the forth month of my programming contract. That’s a lot of firsts. I am truly thankful because it is a new day and I know I wouldn’t be here if it were not for God’s love, grace and mercy.

However, I am filled with anxiety – a sort of depression. Have you ever been in the position where you knew you should be thankful, and maybe you were, but there was something wrong within you? I recognize who God is; I recognize the gift of Christ to our world and at the same time I am troubled.

I really wanted to kick off this blog with some faith-filled fireworks, but I must stick to the promise I have made to myself about what I would write. I am compelled to write the truth, whether it is positive or negative; whether I pass on words of hope or throw a pity party. The name of this blog is My Prayer Time and I want to share the things going on in my life with anyone who cares to partake in them.

There is something good about feeling this bad. You see, the reason I feel this way, as I believe, is because I need to change. I desperately need to be different. I have been struggling recently with fully stepping into the life God has for me. It’s not so much about what God will do in my life tomorrow, next week or next month, and I believe He has great things in store. It’s about what God wants to do in my life today. It’s about being the man of God that He is asking me to be right now. I cannot settle for anything less then this, and until I am able to step into this life, I will be troubled.

It’s a wonderful thing when God does not leave you alone, even when you are ignoring His pleas to live differently. I am learning to cherish the conviction of the Holy Spirit. Please pray for me that I will always be the man of God that God wants me to be. If you have prayer requests, let me know and I will pray for you as well.

God bless,
Clint Herman


P.S.

I wanted to pass on some scripture I read today as part of a daily devotional I subscribe to. It really spoke to me. Read Matthew 9:18-31. Although it deals with some of the healings Jesus did in His earthly ministry, it also deals with our faith.